Girl, are you an angel? ꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱
Because you're in my dreams, memories, and hallucinations.
(I think this, or at least another of my videos, will be airing on TV on May 21st and I don’t have the deets but it’ll be shared here (@0_22collective) when confirmed)
Capping off my “post-pandemic” years at Pratt with some light ~grieving~ through creation. I loved taking Dreams, Memories, and Hallucinations this semester to flex my experimental muscles and make things separate and adjacent to my thesis.
This video has my 4 projects:
The first is a dream. Footage of the ocean from my cruise in September where I had the worst fever I’ve ever had in my life (Covid.)
The second is a memory. My grandpa making me mint tea and letting me dump as much sugar into the teacup as I wanted.
The third is a hallucination. Super 8 footage of Mount Airy, Heskett, and adjacent in Jamaica. And a rotoscoped figure made from overexposed footage of my aunt as we walked through the bushes to my 2nd great-grandmother’s house (she could predict when people would die.)
The last is an amalgam of the ones before it with Super 8 footage of my grandparents’ house in Kingston and overlayed medical animations about dementia and Alzheimer’s. I was thinking about my grandma when I was in Jamaica and on my dad’s most recent visit this year. Last November, I wrote a note in my notes app to look up “inherited anxiety.” She swore that someone “took” my dad when he drove to meet his friends from high school, not to talk to the Rastaman in the living room, and she screamed in her sleep when her children weren’t there with her. I was curious about the connection between hallucinations and dementia and learned that hallucinations are visual or auditory tricks of the mind, while delusions are strong beliefs in the person’s reality (like a fear of being watched or believing there’s someone moving their things.)
I’ve also been listening to a soundtrack for Goodnight Mommy/Ich Seh Ich Seh (which I later learned was a German horror film about these twin boys and their mother.) In the track Different Worlds, Olga Neuwirth samples Brahms’ Lullaby, a song I’ve attached myself to since watching hours of tapes of me as a baby. I took the original lullaby, duplicated it, and applied midi effects to each with a Reaktor 6 plugin called SpaceDrone (also used it in my thesis.)
Although I could probably think of more to say, that’s all folks!
-N
P.S. From when I started writing this post weeks ago:
Am I scared about my grandma never seeing my film? Yes. Am I just gonna sit on my couch and eat Utz and watch Real Housewives? Yes.